And another month and a half goes by...

Didn't mean to leave you hanging after that last post. Its just that I got kind of discouraged with the reply to my email. Apparently, South Africa has some new regulations regarding how many children a donor can contribute to (I never know how to word that). Five is the limit, we took up two of our donor's limit, and there must be at least three others out there. My donor coordinator seemed to think it was worth talking to the doctor about, as it looks like the donor is willing. I wonder what would happen if we had frozen embryos? We'd be able to use those, I suppose. I just haven't worked up the energy or nerve to "beg" him. I don't even know where the regulation is coming from. Is it to keep the number of offspring down? Or is it wear and tear on the donor's ovaries? Either case is fine, I just need to understand.

I'm torn in all directions, anyway, trying to prepare myself. Some days, I think, "We should just be happy with what we have." And I worry about overpopulation. Other days, I think using another donor would be ok. But then I look at the girls, and I want another baby like them. I've made peace with the genetic thing, but now there is more peace to be made with another genetic "thing." Plenty of couples have 1/2 siblings in their family from previous relationships, to say nothing about families where all of the children are adopted. But I'm not ready to start thinking about adoption, again, yet. I still feel a little burned from our last foray into it. Believe me, I know how selfish it all sounds. I'm just "working it out on paper," here. Such is the conscience of the infertile.

The good news is, my OBGYN in the Bible Belt will gladly do a sonohystogram and work-up for me, as well as prescribe any extra drugs I need, ie: Medrol, Lovenox, antibiotics. If I do another cycle, I will want to duplicate what I did last time. He will also do a lining and E2 check. I was going to try and get the sono done this cycle, but it doesn't work out in our timing. I don't want to miss the girl's first Halloween, as you know. Also, we are really in the thick of house planning, and will break ground in November after almost two years of waiting. We couldn't ideally cycle until next September, anyway, if I want D to take care of the twins. He is too busy with work, next summer. So, I will wait, and think some more. Perhaps, I will work up the nerve to email the doctor. By waiting, I might be making a decision, anyway. Our donor probably won't even be interested.

OK, enough with the heavies! Here is what you all come for: Cuteness! They girls had their 9 month baby portraits taken on the 14th. I think they turned out adorable, but I'm a little biased. They even tolerated two outfit changes, but not three, so sorry MIL, I get to dress them. There are quite a few more poses, and since it was our first time, we got suckered into buying most of them. Yikes! But its a nice problem to have.